Unfinished....a taste of what might be a Sentimental mood (draft again)

My heart resides in dreams
sprung from hopes of yesteryear
walls built up from reality
until one Brave hope draws near

Joyous dances in moonshine's beam
through meadows of downy glee
freedom and clarity in starlight's gleam
Courage's arms warm about me there

Cold Morning slaps my face
sharp sight dispels my soft Vision
yet twinkling smiles a' frolic
in remembrance of that place

What to linger in Dreams embrace
ne'er to wake in lost love's tears
alas Dawn chases always for Moon
left to love across a crowded space

Silver and Gold (An unfinished draft...someday I may finish it...my outline included at the end)

We adopted a cat who was abandoned by a neighbor who moved away a number of years ago. My brother decided to name her Silver, why 'Silver' I still don't know. She is quite a pretty cat: long fur, calico, and the cutest huge white paws. She is also one of the more affectionate cats you'd meet, she wasn't very fond of other cats, but she just erupted into a thunderstorm of purring if you just glanced her way. She loves attention. She knows her name and meows back anytime you talk to her. She adopted an empty flower pot to sleep among the flowers and a friend of mine called her her little Silver Flower and the name always stuck in my mind.

As she grew older she became predominantly an outside cat except for cooler winters and lonely nights. She grew older again and needed more help upkeeping her masses of fur, I brushed her as often as I could, she melted at my attentions as I tried to help her feel pretty again. Time went on, she got older, her health started on a downhill. We made her a special bed when she had a lonely night and wanted to sleep inside. She remained my Silver Flower and spent most of her time sleeping in her flower pot amongst the flowers. She went missing from her favorite places and I found her not long after, gone quietly away to pass on. She now sleeps amongst flowers more beautiful than any on this earth and never has to worry about tangles in her fur or feeling lonely, never again to have ill health. I imagine her still as my Silver Flower, napping away in her own special flower pot in the clouds.

A Saturday not long before, I was cleaning/practicing and taking the occasional peek at "Little Mama" my little bird friend watching over her baby eggs. About a half hour had gone by since I had last peeked out the window, I heard a thump outside near the front porch and went to investigate. When I opened the door I saw the wreath that my little finches had nested on had fallen to the ground. I looked around and when I saw no culprit I picked it up and checked the nest. One, two, three, four...all the tiny blue speckled eggs were safe and sound. Relieved, I carefully placed the wreath back up on its nail and went inside to the window and waited for Little Mama to return. She did, hopped around a bit and settled in after giving me a wary and suspicious look. I told her she needn't worry about me, that I would help her protect her nest and her babies. I left the window and my little friend and returned to my Saturday activities.

An hour or two later I heard another thump. I must have been busy with practicing or something because it took a little while for the 'thump''s meaning to process in my mind. When it finally clicked I went out to check on the little nest, first through the window. The wreath had again fallen. I went out and hurriedly picked it up for examination. The nest was empty. I looked all over the porch for the tiny speckled eggs. The porch was clean. I looked again in the nest hoping beyond hope that they might have magically returned to their place. It was empty. I could see my little friend sitting in the nearby tree chiding me so I reluctantly put the wreath back up with its empty nest. I looked around again and saw no sign of the sweet little eggs anywhere. I went back inside and to the window. Little Mama flew back to her nest and my heart broke as she hopped around and cocked her head at all angles looking for her soon-to-be-babies. She looked at me again, but this time almost seeming confused and questioning. I had failed her, I took too long to save the wreath, her nest, and her babies from whatever had desecrated it. She flew off chirping and returned a few minutes later with Little Papa, who I had never seen before then. They both took turns hopping around their empty nest, cocking their heads every which way, chirping to each other, sitting where their eggs should have been only to hop back up in despair. My heart broke again as they would sit in their empty nest for a few minutes longer, searching a few minutes longer, fly back to their tree or the roof and come back chirping, looking sadly to me and each other and their empty nest. I couldn't help but feel that I might have been able to save their babies if only I had come faster, if only I had watched longer, if only... After a couple hours of searching and flying from tree to tree to roof to nest to tree they went away and I never saw them return to the nest.

Weeks later these stories and the memories of other sad times all came back to me as a good sized spider gave me a fright. I am usually not bothered by the creepy crawly bugs much, but this time I couldn't bring myself the courage to even catch it and set it free outside.

finding Silver....finding charly...heart broken little mamma...jumping spider (couldn't smash, innocent, prayed to go away, ...break down... tofu not catch it...let it get out of sight......... found more info=all better (blessed with comfort!)) always comforted, so grateful

Job Safari - Cause Hunting Isn't My Thing

So it is summah time, and the weather is high, la da da da da, do de da dea doy...
Nevermind, you probably don't know that song, and I don't know the rest of the words anywho. :)

Anyway, it is summertime, well May time, and I am once again job searching! Oh the excitement! I was thinking about getting trained and being a phlebotomist, but there doesn't seem to be any openings at the moment.

Then I was thinking about being a teller at a bank/credit union (because one of my brothers is one and it seems like a good, fun job), or being a Pharmacy Tech somewhere (but of course I would need to first get trained/certified as one), or maybe working at a bookstore (because I quite enjoy books), or at a greenhouse/nursery (I love plants and being outside for a job would be awesome), or a chocolate/candy shop (...no reason needed), or one of the popular fruit smoothie franchises, or one of the widespread bread bakeries.....

Those are the ones on my mind at the moment. I would love to work any of these jobs (as well as a number others I am sure), but me being my indecisive and over-analyzing self.... We can just say that it is difficult.

I will keep you updated.

And yes, that is just a random picture. :)

A Little Catsup with my Fried Taters

-ice skating class!
-phone still works!
-played first part and not kicked out of band!
-rainrainrain, snowsnowsnow, beesbeesweedingbees, little Mama!
-it's like Christmas!! ...many times per week

So that is what the draft of this post looked like, I will try to piece together what exactly I was thinking, but as to fitting the title in....I am not too sure where that one came from.


-ice skating class!
I took an Ice Skating class at the Ice sheet on my campus this last semester and I loved it! We had an amazing teacher who was not only a fantastic skater but just one of those who is very talented in teaching what he knows and helping others to improve. I had a blast learning new techniques and "basic" skills.


As part of our grade we had to buy a public skate punch pass to go and practice what we learned outside of class time. Some of the times I went in the evenings when all of the dating/scouting/church/party/family groups of people swarmed the rink and you had just enough room to follow the mob counter-clockwise around the rink and around and around again. Other times I would go during the day (if my band class was canceled or something) and there would only be a handful of people there, most of them practicing for an upcoming competition or show or something I would imagine. I was in awe at their expertise in comparison to my own "basic" skills. I was always excited to practice the new things I had learned in class, but sometimes my shaky three-turns looked a little silly against another fellow practicer's beautiful lay-back spin; or my bruising crash landing after attempting a couple lunges would redden my face more than my purple knees as I would watch them practice a toe-loop or lutz. I did feel a little silly practicing with those whose talents were far more worked and perfected than mine but I enjoyed every minute of it. I laughed at myself and watched others in wonder. I gained a whole new appreciation for skaters of all kinds (hockey, figure, speed,..) and my love for skating only grew.


-phone still works!
As for my poor phone. I have had my phone for a good while cell-phone-wise am I am very grateful to have one. I am also grateful to have a nice warm jacket, also one that I have had for a long while (a longer while than that of my phone). My poor jacket's pockets are starting to come unstitched a little...well okay, the one pocket only has three of the three and a half sides still stitched in place (I haven't quite gotten around to fixing it, but it's on the to-do list).

I was doing some cleaning not too long ago and wearing said jacket with my phone in the aforementioned pocket of that jacket. I was cleaning the bathroom and had cleaned the vanity, the mirrors, and scrubbed the toilet 'til it sparkled nicely. I was working on the floors and bent over to pick something up off the floor and heard a dreadful splash near my head. I glanced over and lo! My poor phone slid out of my broken pocket into my glittering-clean toilet! NO!! How many times had I told my phone to fight its urges and desires to test its imaginary wings and fly to freedom?? Well, none, but it should have known better than to try its hand at swimming. Phones don't come installed with floaties and therefore should never be trusted in a lifeguarding post--they sink like an anvil.

I fished my phone out (with only a little hesitation...I had just cleaned the toilet!!), shook it violently until my arms were sore to get as much water out as I could, and let it open to dry overnight. Luckily I was blessed to have not damaged it too much for in the morning when I put the battery back in and turned it on it worked! Happy day when phones get brought back from near drowning experiences!! It has been slightly more temperamental since and I think I might have to get a new phone sometime soon, but hooray for still having a working phone! I now try to keep things in more secure pockets.


-played first part and not kicked out of band!
Well, that one speaks for itself I think. My band director decided last semester to put me on first-solo part in our Symphonic Band with a great solo clarinet player (so we were both covering the parts). He said he wanted to give me the opportunity, and I said I am happy to play any part he gives me. Oh my. I had never played solo-solos in a concert before! It was tons of fun and I enjoyed it greatly. We played all of Johan DeMeij's Lord of the Rings Symphony and a handful of other fun pieces and I wasn't booed off the stage for my one or two little solos. YAY! I had great fun.


-rainrainrain, snowsnowsnow, beesbeesweedingbees, little Mama!
Hmmmm. Oh yeah. So it was quiet an interesting spring this year. I live in a desert so one might think it would often be quite dry and warm by end of April-May-ish. Not so much. I don't think we have had many whole weeks where we have gone without a rainstorm or two. One day it was sunny and very much warm and the next day or two it then cooled forty degrees and rained and snowed on the Spring Daffodils! It even snowed on the first of May! It seems like we have had a good batch of rainstorms this spring season, and I love it!! I love the rain, I love the snow, I love the sunshine, ...I love it all!!


So, one of those warmer days I was weeding. Pulling out dandelions and grass and such out of the garden. There was one particularly thick bunch of dandelions which I noticed must have been quite the party place for all the honeybees around. I avoided weeding around their corner, but then had the urge to go get my camera and play. I had much fun...


My brother also discovered a little bird had made its nest atop a wreath on their front porch, every time anyone would go out the front door the poor little bird would fly off and chide us in her sweet, sing-song voice from a nearby tree and almost make us jump out of our shoes in surprise. A few times I even reminded myself before I went out that the bird was there and would surprise me when I opened the door, but still, every time, I jumped. I looked one day in her nest and found she had four little speckled eggs! I took up watching her from the kitchen window that looks on the front porch. I looked her up on bird watching sites and found that she was a sweet little house finch. I called her Little Mama and we became friends (at least from my side) and I think sometimes she trusted me enough to let me sit out on the porch to read when the sun was out...if I stayed still for the most part.


-it's like Christmas!! ...many times per week
Or maybe its just like Christmas everyday! Whenever someone gets something cool in the mail (anything besides mailers and bills and such), gets something fun from the store, finds something they lost, just has a happy day, does something fun, gets something cleaned (like a car or room or pet), or for no reason at all except for being happy...."It's like Christmas!" My brother and sister more or less told me that it is apparently Christmas everyday according to me. Fine by me! Happy day!!

Onomatopoeia!!

My brother told me that when I tell him stories my regular use of onomatopoeias makes him laugh. I hadn't noticed my use of such exciting language until he mentioned it which in turn made me laugh.

After church one Sunday (it had been sunny for a few days and somewhat warm for winter) I was happily surprised to find an inch or two of slush snow to scrape off my car. I loved it. It was the kind of slush that makes glorious schlopping sounds when you step in it and just solid enough not to get one's feet terribly wet when trekking across parking lots. I successfully cleared my car and went on my way out of the parking lot as the sky half-heartedly rain-hailed.

I got to the road in front of my church and found that the roads too were wet and delightfully slushy so I drove slowly towards the hill I had to venture down to be on my way home. A couple of cars came up the hill headed the the other direction and I paid them no real heed until they were even with me. They were driving quite a bit faster than I was and slush was spraying out from their tires...."SLUSH!" Most of my windshield was covered in the opaque sloppy mess and just the noise it made when it hit nearly had me jump out of my shoes. Luckily my windshield wipers were already on and wiped it away, and by the time it had and when my shoes recovered from being jumped out of, I couldn't help but laugh. The familiar image of someone waiting under umbrella at a bus stop in the rain only to be splashed unsuspectingly by a passing car (in the movies often by a marvelously huge tidal wave of a splash) and left standing, dripping wet, umbrella blown uselessly inside-out by the blow...

I continued on my way home in the on-off rain-snow. About the halfway mark it started snowing full on and the snowflakes kept growing and growing. At their peak, they were the biggest snowflakes I had ever seen in my life and you could hear their soft "plump" when they hit my windshield and left palm sized splotches of snowflake (huge cookie size is the way I explained it at the time). I was in awe and grinning like a goon the whole time. I love snowflakes. I wanted to turn back around and just pull over on the side of the highway to just watch, but my family dinner called to my tummy and that was still another hours drive away after I got home. I left my snowflakes as I turned the corner onto another highway and within two minutes it had stopped snowing and I believe the sun even came out before it started raining again.

I told my brother my story excitedly while on our way to said family dinner (with probably a few more onomatopoeias than I can remember now) and we laughed. I had never before noticed I made such good use of such exciting language until it was pointed out. We then laughed about how "abbreviation" is such a long word, and asked why onomatopoeia isn't its namesake. I then decided is should be, so, onomatopoeia became an onomatopoeia. And there was much onomatopoeia-ing.

Until next time, consider yourself thoroughly onomatopoeiaed.

12-10-2007

IT SNOWED!!! And snowed, and is snowing some more! Happy happy birthday present. :D


More coming soon!

Finals are Imminent

Sorry friends! This semester has eaten me up and I've not gotten around to posting. ...but the semester is almost over!! YAY! I've got plenty of finals, presentations, papers, concerts, pep band games, and rehearsals to keep me plenty busy the next couple weeks, but after that I get to have my wonderful Winter Break! I am excited.

I really don't have time to post much of anything at the moment (I should be finishing up a few papers and things), but I just wanted to make it known that I haven't quite fallen off the edge of the earth. I still have a few fingertips topside.

Summer Randoms

Hello and Summer's Greetings! I had written of a new post a little while ago, but it seems to have gotten eaten. So sad. I don't even remember what it was about either. Instead of backtracking to past weeks', I am just going to start with this week and will probably review past missed stories at a latter time.

So, things that have made me happy. In list format because I am feeling too lazy to connect everything all together in some sort of logical fashion.

-At the moment I am listening to some Eric Whitacre pieces I have played in band (one of my favorite composers, you should all definitely go to his site and take a few minutes to listen to the samples of his songs).

-I have been on a bit of a cleaning kick this week (kicks earn me title of "White Tornado" from my Mother) and have half cleaned the monstrosity that has been my room (sadly neglected during the school year), cleaned/organized random spots around the house, done many loads of laundry, helped to clean my church, and will mow our lawn as soon as we get more gasoline for it (hopefully later today). Cleaning...er, when things are clean I feel happy inside, and accomplished if I helped to do the cleaning.

-I got to go see my little brother's Jazz band concert (he is in my old, awesome high school band program now), and he did awesome! I need to join the Jazz band at my school, the music just makes me happy, like an adrenalin rush. I also got to see one of my best friends and talk with my Junior High German Teacher. I had decided in high school that was a requirement for all German teachers to simply just be awesome. All of mine have been teachers and amazing people.

-I went with some other best friends of mine (who I haven't been able to talk with much because of school) to a young people's activity and got to talk with them for a while and have all sorts of fun.

-I donated blood for the first time ever on Thursday, it was SO FUN, and SO COOL! I had a really good phlebotomist and got to talk with her about her job and other things. (such as how I don't mind blood too much and other things....like how the nurses/dermatologist all thought I was a little strange for being fascinated with watching my skin change colors as it froze and thawed (I had a wart frozen off)) She ended up telling me that I should become a doctor or something and that she had a doctor who was like me (fascinated by things others might see as morbid). I am thinking about doing Phlebotomy as a part time job.

-I was interviewed on Friday for a temporary summer-long job at my Mom's office and was told that they thought I sounded perfect for the job and want me to start next Tuesday. I am still deciding, but I will probably take the job. The Attorney who interviewed me also that I had "an impressive resume for being such a young lady." Wow! That would be a confidence booster.

-I also got to spend that day at work with my Mom (well, it was her half day...so not the whole day) where I went a little crazy and spent about a half an hour sitting under her desk...as her desk troll. I don't even think one of her co-workers, who walked around her desk to try to help with some thing, even noticed I was there. hehehe I should have made troll noises. Later we got to go to lunch with my sister and her fiance at a "hippy vegetarian/raw" place. It was really yummy. Mmmmm Curry. I love my family. I decided that we need to do more stuff as a family together.

-After we went to lunch my Mom and I went to my Jeanie's (we don't call her grandma, she is just Jeanie, because she just isn't a grandma) and helped her with a couple things and talked with her. I am so lucky to have a Jeanie. I love her so much. (don't worry Mom, I love you so much, too! I am excited to work at your office with you ever the summer!)

I think that is all for now. More to come soon!

-the BandNeeek

I'm a Chuggin Along...still

Still working on getting caught up with this...finals are next week (and this week) so after then I will really be able to sprint back up to gear.

Woah! Rewind!

I have not posted in ...a long while, but never fear! I haven't been eaten by the fathomless monster that is schoolwork or brainwashed by the lazy dust bunnies inside my pillow. Well, maybe just a little. A nibble here and a splosh there, nothing an extra Spring Break wouldn't fix (but seeing as extra breaks have been outlawed, I will just have to wait a few more weeks until after finals are done and over with). All is well that ends in Summer break!

So. Happy things. There are many. It has been sunny and warm, and now it is about to rain and snow and be cold for a few days. Both for me are happy.

I ate way too much Easter candy on Easter. I was bouncing off the walls so much I think my family wanted to disown me for a while. hehehe It doesn't help that I haven't been getting to bed as early as I should and missed hours of sleep pile on. And make me even more giddy. It has been fun on my side of things though. Most everything seems funny if you have sufficiently tilted your circadian cycle and added grotesque amounts of sugar to your diet. Not recommended for long term use.

Oh, yes. Easter. Easter was wonderful! My Mom taught my brother and I how to make deviled eggs, which is quite fun, and made us try one when we had finished. I don't think I have ever enjoyed eating hard-boiled eggs, but these weren't so bad. Nevertheless, one is enough for me. We got to spend much of the day with our family, eating, playing, talking, and generally enjoying the day (after church, of course, which was also wonderful). I ended up crashing early-ish in the evening because of all the sugar I ate and all the energy I expended because of it, but I thoroughly enjoyed my day.

This week has been good, too. We are playing a few fun songs in band and I am still getting used to the new mouthpieces that our band director bought the whole clarinet section (not ours to keep unless we buy them from him). We have had a couple fun sectionals, one in which I ended up being silly and bending notes. Another clarinet friend of mine wanted me to teach her how, so I tried my best (I am not terribly amazing at it myself, but I have fun). She thinks it sounds like a kitty mewing, which had us all giggling.

Speaking of kitties, we took my kitty to the vet on Saturday because he has been acting not so happy lately. He wasn't happy about going, but we wrapped him up in a towel and covered his head and he was just fine. The doctor said he looked great, besides needing to lose a couple few pounds (he weighed in at 15.9 pounds...eek), but took some blood tests to make sure everything was alright. We called back Monday for the results and they came back normal! I was so relieved. We have him on diet food so he should slim down a bit over the next while. I will have to update you on the weekends or something so you too can watch his dieting (I know, so exciting for you).

Alright. I think that is enough for today. I will post more soon! Stay Happy!

-the BandNeeek

P.S. I have a whole handful of posts that I haven't quite finished. I will finish them soon and post them up! Keep an eye out. :)